Insomnia VII

I saw you cry tonight.
It was not like in the movies
Where I could hold you
And everything would fix itself.

No.
It left a hollow feeling in my chest.
I wanted to hold you.
You needed me tonight
Like I needed you.

The doors slam and the screams echo.
A house that doesn't feel like home.
The internet began to break down
Just as you did.

I saw your brave mask fall.
And behind it your softer side came out.
Your broken side.
All the memories and tragedies spilling between your lips
as you choked on your tears.

"I didn't want you to see me like this"
"It doesn't matter, I still love you"

Insomnia VI

You fell asleep on skype again.
I'm not mad,
I enjoy watching you sleep.

How content you seem,
at peace when your world is falling apart.
And you refuse to break under all the pressure.

You forgot to mute your mic,
I listen to your steady breathing,
longing to be in your arms.

I should be asleep,
it's 4am here in England.
But I can't bring myself to end the call.

You startle awake,
murmuring 'I love you' as you realise I'm still here.
'I love you too' I whisper with a smile.